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"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return." It occurred to me just now that maybe that's impossible. Maybe you can only have one. Or maybe you discover one of them, and then have to be taught the other. posted by Arthur @ 8/31/2002 02:33:00 PM	Saturday, August 31, 2002
It's very hard to give a guy failure, but it's just as hard to give a girl success. Both sexes have exactly the same instinctive shirk. And i think they deserve each other. But i appreciate when someone shows me i've failed, because it's an opportunity to grow. And i want a girl who can appreciate success. It'd be comforting to think every girl who has not succumbed to my eccentric charm has been shirking the success of having caught my attention. Of course, this is not the case. However, i know that it has been the case, and that the necessary vagueness of every other case is just another in a series of stupid, life-denying games. The way girls behave suggests that we, as guys, simply shouldn't care. If we do care that the girl we're attracted to ignores us, clearly we've got a problem and weren't worth it anyway. The truth that always seems to get the cone of silence in gender politics is that we're all human. Girls are supposed to be subhuman and not worth a guy's time, and guys are supposed to be superhuman and not care about girls. i am simply human seeking connections - across this garden of already forking paths - with another human. Girls, you're not subhuman. You do affect us. Take some responsibility. Current Mood: blue, rebekah Current Music: "People always take a step away from what is true, that's why I like you around" - I Want You, Third Eye Blind posted by Arthur @ 8/31/2002 02:29:00 AM
i feel quite anti-social, against this social whole as it exists. i wish one could be a pirate or a highwayman in these days. But my way of shooting them with noiseless bullets that explode in their souls, these social people of today, perhaps is more satisfying. But i feel like an outlaw. All my work is a shot at their very innermost strength, these banded people of today. Let them cease to be. Let them make way for another, fewer, stronger, less cowardly people. posted by Arthur @ 8/30/2002 11:02:00 PM	Friday, August 30, 2002
You'll all enjoy this... i took a personality test at eHarmony.com in order to find my soulmate, and my profile was REJECTED. Well, here are some interesting things it said, anyway... - You have a natural enthusiasm for the activities you prefer. Because of your enthusiasm, you may forget that others have different wants and needs. - You don't actively seek out conflict; however, you will confront those who stand between you and what you want to happen. - In social situations, you prefer variety, adventure, and the unusual. You may lose interest if you feel a situation is becoming routine. As a result, you must be kept busy and involved with making things happen. - You respect those who win out against the odds and show persistence. You set high goals for yourself and others. - Your primary social strategy is making things happen and happen now. - You can get so involved with an activity that you take charge, and this can frustrate others. You don't mean to take charge, it's just your drive. - You will take issue and not shy away from confrontation when others disagree with how you feel or think. - Your high ego traits coupled with impatience may have others read you as arrogant at times. This is only appreciated by others when they understand that you need quick results, challenges, and competition. - You can be quite cautious and not trust people you don't know. Once you get to know them you can be warm and disarming. And here are "communication styles that will mesh well with your own"... - Take issue with the facts, not the person, if you disagree. - Provide options, rather than opinions. - Verify that the message is understood. - Be brief, clear, and to the point. - Provide questions and choices for making decisions. - Motivate and persuade by referring to objectives and results. - Ask specific questions--preferably "What..." questions. - Prepare for demanding questions, and perhaps objections. Current Mood: amused Current Music: "These things i do, you see i've forgotten if they're green or they're blue" - Your Song, Elton John posted by Arthur @ 8/30/2002 08:55:00 PM
These old photographs are good, because i have a bad memory. They uncover the emotions beneath the rust and creaks we've become. i love you. That's very hard to conjure these days. i try to hide the notion away because i am so afraid, so afraid, so afraid of never finding it again. And you've grown up. Everyone is growing up. Even Sarah has told me to grow up. And i won't. It's not a rebellion, it's not a smug literary allusion, it's not even a decision. i grew up long before i met you, and that was all for me. A child awake, alone, among stars. And here i am. And there you are. Ever farther, ever farther. And i have been reaching for so long, so long. You don't know alone. Like driving through another state: i love you; so long. Current Mood: camilla Current Music: "Awake on my airplane, my skin is bare" - Take A Picture, Filter posted by Arthur @ 8/29/2002 04:34:00 AM	Thursday, August 29, 2002
scared of a world outside you should go explore you pull all the shades and wander the great indoors though lately i can't blame you i have seen the world and sometimes wish your room had room for two posted by Arthur @ 8/27/2002 01:33:00 AM	Tuesday, August 27, 2002
Whoa! Mayer! Anagram! posted by Arthur @ 8/27/2002 01:27:00 AM
Pop Monday: There's no use denying it anymore. John Mayer has replaced the Counting Crows as my favorite band. Between gouging black sand from my nails, i've been asking myself, "Am i living it right?" My dissatisfaction replies. i wanna be reckless. i want adventure. i want more bears and chickens and things. But i just keep circling myself, like a hungry paradoxical vulture. And the space between the stars grows as shallow as a grown-up. i don't deserve this. Though of course i do, and in that realization i may find freedom. i just hope it's soon. The huddled masses of Realworld are hurling stones, and i still haven't found my out. i always thought it would be you. Current Mood: missing a piece Current Music: "You'll be with me next time i go outside" - 3 x 5, John Mayer posted by Arthur @ 8/27/2002 12:09:00 AM
Can't talk. Must do. Current Mood: nauseous Current Music: "Can you hear me that when it rains and shines it's just a state of mind?" - Rain, The Beatles posted by Arthur @ 8/26/2002 01:12:00 AM	Monday, August 26, 2002