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Yesterday's Fair was the first last scheduled event of my life. Interestingly, i received three pieces of mail: 1) my diploma, indicating a degree in Poetry. 2) loan info, indicating a ridiculous sum of money i owe. 3) a letter from Poetry.com, indicating that i am a semi-finalist for $1000. What does it all add up to? No really, i'm asking. posted by Arthur @ 6/08/2002 10:11:00 PM	Saturday, June 08, 2002
Have you noticed your history becoming incomprehensible? i don't know when it eroded, but i find myself completely unable to fathom the length of my life. i wonder if being grown-up is less about gaining experience, and more about losing the terminus a quo of birth. posted by Arthur @ 6/06/2002 10:56:00 PM	Thursday, June 06, 2002
i'm a bit odd. This often frightens people because i'm not different in manifest attributes or mannerisms, but in buried fundamentals - my last girlfriend liked to call me an alien. Not surprisingly, i am saddened and frustrated by people who avoid the strange. However, today i was watching an artsy IFC short about a man in a dog costume. As i waited and waited for some kind of meaning, it occurred to me that if i'd been watching the latest Hollywood action flick, i wouldn't have given it a tenth of the chance i gave dog-man. Somehow, this doesn't seem much more honest than those who avoid. So maybe the problem is not in our reaction, but in our perception. Perhaps it's natural to fear new things, but perhaps, also, everything is new. posted by Arthur @ 6/04/2002 06:38:00 PM	Tuesday, June 04, 2002
Not so long ago i had a bit of a debate with Monica over humankind. Monica has one of the warmest hearts around, and is currently attending Harvard in pursuit of some sort of altruistic political career. That's why it shocked me to discover that she believes some people are inherently Evil. i should admit that few notions offend me as much as this one, but it also strikes me as impossible to be a humanitarian who doesn't believe in humans. Throughout the conversation she argued that the two of us could differ in our opinions, and frankly, i'm tired of hearing that from you people. Yes. People may disagree. However, that doesn't mean we shouldn't fight about it. And it certainly doesn't defend your case to say that you're entitled to your opinion. Everyone's so damned afraid of being ignorant that we're mired in unexamined hypotheses. Wake up, people! Ignorance is an opportunity! When we check over our instruments and find missing or neglected lenses, we could feel embarrassed and incapable, or we could replace the lenses and encounter a new, clearer world. To recognize one's own ignorance is to awaken the awe of Possibility and the thrill of discovery. i know of few experiences more exciting. Speaking of younger siblings from the cheesemobile, for a short time i rode the bus with a jocose young fellow named Eric, who had an astoundingly good idea: an imaginary girlfriend. Your first inclination is to laugh, as was mine, but consider it seriously. Laura was always there to sit next to him, to listen to him, and they even fooled around. Unfortunately, i've never been quite so imaginative, but yesterday i began constructing a mix to be my girlfriend. Here's what i've got so far: keystones All You Wanted, Michelle Branch Lose Your Way, Sophie B. Hawkins voussoirs Ice Cream, Sarah MacLachlan Power of Two, Indigo Girls Kind and Generous, Natalie Merchant I'll Stand By You, Pretenders Morning Song, Jewel Head Over Feet, Alanis Morrissette London Rain, Heather Nova imposts Always Be My Baby, Mariah Carey Because You Loved Me, Celine Dion i'm looking to fill a 90-minute tape, so if you've got any suggestions... posted by Arthur @ 6/03/2002 09:35:00 PM	Monday, June 03, 2002