me...

i like women, and music, and films. And let's face it, these things aren't really so very different.

Our rare species is incomplete; we are tadpoles who know of the mountain. Nevermind that our objectivity is more subjective than our subjectivity, we each seek a personal understanding of existence. Existence, however, doesn't lend itself to a personal understanding, or rather, it lends itself to every personal understanding. We therefore create our lives in defense of our assumed world.

My assumed world, i am quite sure, is a romantic one. If we skip over the value-judgement adjectives of imaginary, impractical, and idealized, we come to Webster's sixth definition: "Of, relating to, or constituting the part of a hero..." In my assumed world, i am a hero. But - and this is the part that no one seems to comprehend - so is everyone else. Every person has their own journey, with their own suffering, and their own victories. And i believe, given the chance and the awareness, people will act heroically.

When i sit down in a movie theater, or put on my headphones, i am temporarily surrendering to someone else's journey. In a sort-of undramatic way, i am saying, "Here is my heart, where would you take it?" And in film and music, i have often been very well cared for. As for women, on the other hand...

posted by Arthur @ 5/26/2002 07:32:00 AM

Sunday, May 26, 2002