me...

In the beginning, there was Sarah and her pirate name. Upon the day of her sacred pirate christening, she came across a girl who felt a lot like me. And so we found blue.

me: i am astounded by our similarities.
blue: I will but hint at your existence.
me: Is that not wasteful? Should we not rejoice at our meeting?
blue: Did I mention that I am a mime?
me: Girls are odd. But i like your weblog.

And so was created this weblog, and it was good.

The above incident in mind, it occurs to me that one of the reasons i confuse people is that i am both confident and shy. The world is so intricately woven, the very realization of participation, existence, becomes a static charge of exhilarated confidence. But Humanity- A human is this beautiful, if destructive, aberration, and i can't but brim with wonder and nervous curiousity. Preferences aside, it's very much like the difference between a ferris wheel and a roller coaster, and people as usual just don't understand. Shy behavior from a confident person, i think, reads as dislike. Further, understanding this in myself, i begin to wonder how many people i've lost because they were like me and i couldn't tell. i feel as though rejection has beaten me into the default assumption that i am completely alone in my perspective. If this is the case, i fear i have already surrendered.

Happy Birthday to me! Did you know i was born on a Thursday? i never could get the hang of Thursdays.

posted by Arthur @ 2/07/2002 11:32:00 PM

Thursday, February 07, 2002